I don’t think I really need to explain this one, do I…? There have been feelings lately, and I am muddling through. This is a look that matches my mood. I’ve got a lot on my plate right now, and some of it should actually be exciting, but I am terrified; between this and the thing I wrote about last week, and some other work-related things, I really don’t know whether I am coming or going right now. I’m simultaneously ecstatic and and electrified with possibility. but also frustrated and angry and utterly paralyzed.
Pairing together clothes and jewelry that I’m only pretending to have seems a silly thing to do with my time, but it’s doing something, and having done one thing, it may easier to do the next, and then another. Progress will be made, I know it will, because it always is. I just have to start somewhere.
This is a look for that foggy somewhere place of vague starts and stops; where the ideas are buzzing and whirling around your head like hungry flies; you just need to reach out and snatch one of them out of the air with the tips of your fingers. It doesn’t matter which one you grab. This is where you start.
Yohji Yamamoto Asymmetric Layered Dress // Else Boomerang II Underwire Longline Bra & thong // Nutsa Modebadze NM0062 boot // Alexander Wang Roxy hobo bag // Hvnter Gvtherer Whipsnake Accessory // Hagerskans Jewelry moth ring // KimyaJoyas herkimer diamond ring // Arcana Obscura sword necklace // Stacy Hopkins Design Odontolabis Femoralis ring // Lauren Wolf Sea Urchin bangle // Valley Eyewear Gravestone sunglasses // Chantecaille Celestial Nail Sheer // Punker mascara // Moth & Rabbit Perfumes, Enter The Void
For some reason I'm looking at this before 7 AM because I am also feeling some kind of way, some way that's angry/miserable/grieving/excited/hopeful/excited that is got me sitting here never wanting to leave my room, or in fact this bed. I'm really up early because I have a lot of things to do today that I have no fucking heart for, and to do them I'm going to have to get up and get dressed. So with that in mind, thanks for posting this. Maybe it is just a virtual exercise, putting together an outfit that doesn't materially exist, but I'm looking at this today while feeling some kind of way and at least feeling like I might be able to get actually dressed now. I hope you got a little of that forward movement too, to do the next thing after this. <3
S. Elizabeth says
Ooof, and it's such an insult, isn't it to feel angry and miserable on a FRIDAY? I mean, on Monday that's sort of expected so it's almost tolerable. But at the end of the week? Unacceptable!
My sister once told me that "A good goal is to get out of bed in the morning. And some days that's as good as it gets." I think we've at least made it there today!