Unquiet
Things

2024 was not a year of big things for me; there were no books published or big projects I was involved in or working on. With this freed-up brain space, I wrote more than ever before on the blog, for a whopping total of 130 blog posts: I wrote about the artists I love, I kept track of and shared my thoughts on the books I read, I watched scary movies and wrote about what I saw, I rambled at length about fragrances, and I mused existentially on all manner of nonsense.

And so, after all that, I’m taking a little break! Nothing serious over here at Unquiet Things while the year winds down, no essays or explorations or examinations of the profound or provocative – just cozy musings and year-end meanderings while I recharge my creative batteries. Over the next few weeks, I plan on sharing some bookish gift ideas and the favorite and needful things I’ve enjoyed this year, along with the usual month-end perfume reviews, quarterly reading roundup, and book reviews. And that’s all she wrote!

Yet even in this softer, slower season, I find myself collecting little moments and observations like magpie treasures. Here’s what’s been gathering in my winter nest…

Stories & Sounds

Reading…

I have just reviewed my NetGalley shelf (a site where you can get ARCs in exchange for reviews) and noted all of the things I was rejected for in the past six months. Most of the titles have now been published, and I have either found library copies or put holds on them. I know we only have three more weeks left in the year, but that doesn’t mean I am not going to try and read 30 additional books! In the meantime, here are things that I have read this past month:

I’ve just emerged from the strange, unsettling world of Beta Vulgaris by Margie Sarsfield (forthcoming February 2025), where the mundane task of harvesting sugar beets in Minnesota becomes a surreal descent into spiraling depression. What begins as a more or less straightforward story about seasonal work to escape debt becomes something far more devastating – and weirdly compelling. Through Elise’s eyes, we experience not just the physical labor of the beet harvest, but the exhausting weight of existing in a mind that’s constantly at war with itself. Sarsfield renders disordered eating, self-loathing, and crushing anxiety with such stark familiarity that you find yourself nodding in recognition even as you wince at the truth of it. It’s all threaded through with a caustic, mean-spirited humor that somehow makes the relentless internal monologue bearable – even darkly entertaining. When mysterious voices begin emanating from the beet pile and workers start disappearing, you’re not quite sure if you’re witnessing a psychological unraveling or something more sinister. The genius is that both readings work, and both are equally horrifying.

Absolution by Jeff VanderMeer consumed ten solid days of my December reading life – unusual for someone who typically juggles 5-6 books at once. I had to clear my literary deck entirely to give it the focus it required. While I wish I’d refreshed my memory of the previous stories to better grasp its intricate web of connections… ten days, and all I got was the briefest glimpse of something vast and incomprehensible that will needle at my brain forever, a maddening fragment I won’t even be able to articulate by the time the next book comes out. Which is probably exactly what reading VanderMeer should feel like.

Listening…

It’s December so that pretty much means if I am at my desk working or writing, it is 24/7 Hildegard von Bingen or medieval chanting, while in the rest of the house, it’s old-fashioned Christmas carols. But I did see that Pye Corner Audio has got something new forthcoming, and I sure do dig their eerie hauntological electronica; I have really been enjoying Babyrose’s sublime psychedelic soul and also this release from Black Swan, 20 pieces evoking “the experiences of a spirit navigating the physical world it left behind.” And lastly Blood Incantation’s prog rock/death metal album Absolute Elsewhere album is a journey.

Watching…

I am still having a hard time watching much of anything at all, but I’ve been in the mood to see something beautiful, something visually stunning. Think The Fountain, The Cell, Valerie and Her Week of Wonders, all those sorts of things. I polled my social media friends and compiled a list –none of which I have watched yet — but if you are interested in this sort of film too, I thought I would share all of the suggestions. A significant handful of people mentioned The Fall (the Tarsem Singh movie, not the detective show with Gillian Anderson). This film has been on my list for years now, and I finally watched it last night. AND WOW. Baby Lee Pace! And a friend told me that the girl grew to be a very cool pole dancer, which is neat. Also, I want to knit up her sweet little cardigan!

But as you can imagine, searching for “the fall” + “cardigan pattern,” while it turns up some lovely autumnal patterns, yields nothing actually helpful to my search. Anyhow, here are some other “beautiful movies” that folx mentioned if you’re looking to add to your list. Some of these I have seen, but others I’ve not even heard of, and since I don’t know what you’ve seen or haven’t (or truly, what is even your definition of “beautiful”), I have included all of them…

Loving Vincent (2017) // La Belle et la bête (1946 + 2014) // Tears of the Black Tiger (2003) // Poor Things (2023) // Russian Ark (2003) // Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon (2000) // Prospero’s Books (1991) // Orlando (1992) // Barry Lyndon (1975) // Night of the Hunter (1955) // My Neighbor Totoro (1988) // House of the Flying Daggers (2004) // Pan’s Labryinth (2006// Interstellar (2014) // Baron Munchausen (1988) // The Girl on the Bridge (1999) // Conclave (2024)// Days of Heaven (1978) // Midnight in Paris (2011) // The Green Knight (2021) // A Midsummer Night’s Dream (1935) // Shadows of Forgotten Ancestors (1965) // The Scent of Green Papaya (1993) // Anastasia (1997) // Melancholia (2011) // The City of Lost Children (1995) // In the Mood For Love (2000) // The Secret of the Kells (2009) // The Company of Wolves (1984) // Amelie (2001) // Blade Runner (1982 + 2017) // Beyond the Black Rainbow (2010)

Hearth & Home

We held Thanksgiving at our house this year. Which is funny, because I initially wasn’t even going to be here for Thanksgiving; I would have been visiting one of my sisters in Asheville. But with the storm and the damage, we thought it best to hold off until next year. So somehow, I went from doing nothing over the holiday to hosting the whole dang affair. Ývan took care of the turkey, and I made the mashed potatoes, green bean casserole (from scratch, using smittenkitchen’s recipe), cranberry-apple compote, and sourdough dinner rolls. My father-in-law brought stuffing and apple pie. No pumpkin or pecan pie this year, THANK GOD. Ugh. Not my favorite stuff.

Not usually being the ones left holding the leftovers, I took the opportunity to try a bunch of new things and experiment. We waffled the mashed potatoes (success!) and the stuffing (not so much) using this tiny waffle iron that I’ve had for years but never actually use. We made turkey salad (whiz up turkey, onions, and celery in a food processor and fold in mayo and seasonings; eat on crackers or wraps or whatever.) We made a huge pot of broth with the turkey carcass, some of which we froze, some of which we used to make soup with the remainder of the green bean casserole, and some of which Ývan used to make a big batch of congee. And then, finally, with the leftover compote, I have been stirring spoonfuls into boiling water and making tea with it!

Current Enchantments & Little Lights

❄ There are only a few months out of the year when I can really wear my knits, and that time is now upon us! Last night, it actually got down to 36° F, and now it is absolutely freezing in my office; my hands are too cold to wield a pen or a needles, so it’s time to pull out the hand-knit mitts! These are the Campestral Mitts by Lauren Rad (and the sock-in-progress up there is also her pattern.)

❄ It is the time for layering! I am happiest and most comfortable when not an inch of skin is showing. This is the season for wearing a turtleneck under a dress over some leggings with thick socks and a scarf and sure maybe it looks a little eccentric, like a wacky macaroni necklaced kindergarten teacher, but I don’t care, I love it!

❄ My winter fragrances! I can smell like a Rust Cohle McConaughlogue with Lvnea’a Deer Mother, or the forests teeming with undead Green/Black MtG deck of Dasein’s Winter Nights, or the snowy yokai sneaking off for a ciggie on a winter’s evening while peeling a tangerine with long, sharp silver fingernails of Ikiriyo’s Yukion’na. I have a BPAL included in this winter line-up, and while it is no longer available limited edition scent, this year’s Yule scents are now live!

❄ Not necessarily winter-related, but I am having a long-awaited, much-needed Fuck Off, World! Weekend. Ývan is away at PAX Unplugged doing a whole bunch of nerdy stuff, and I am at home, doing a bunch of intensely introverted homebody stuff! Like peeing with the door open! No one can stop me! I ate so many Cool Ranch Doritos yesterday that I injured my tongue, and I stayed up til 2:30 am watching movies, whee! Today, I am being more responsible, and I am crossing things off my to-do list: pinning and blocking out a two year’s worth of knitted shawls, repotting a little tea tree plant, sending some perfume samples to a friend, and writing out all of my Patreon cards for December. Well…that was the plan anyway. It’s already 3 o’clock in the afternoon and I have spent most of the day writing this blog post. Ah well! The purpose of the FOW!W is to accomplish as little as humanly possible, so by all accounts, I am winning.

What have you all been up to lately? Are you leaning into winter’s slow pleasures or fighting against them? Also, should I watch my Cool Ranch Doritos consumption more carefully in my 40s? Asking for a friend (the friend is my tongue.)

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